Friends are everything

Hello... have you ever wonder, when the person that you have been expecting to be around you can't be around you, while other people that is unexpected to be around you, will come and give you support...?? well... they are what you called friends..

Look into clear blue sky.. you can actually see stars.. and moon.. :) they are my very good friend.. sometimes I just can't rely on my good friends (real human being I mean here) too much.. they may have their own things to do.. they may be busy with some stuff and obviously they would have to give priority to their loved ones... not to say that I'm being childish and merajuk ke ape based on the last reason.. no... it is not that.. what I'm trying to say here, that is life.. don't worry la.. bukan merajuk.. pls la... hehe... :)

And after all, you have decided to not tell anyone about your problems.. but somehow, a real good friend can just spot that entah dari mana punca pun I tak tau.. and that is my dear good friend, Noradila Saeni.. sy syg kamu.. heheh.. ;) she suddenly send a message asking about my blog which I didn't tell people that I have my own freaking blog now and she was asking me about my problems.. :O where did you get all those information mak cik?? haha... well.. I guess that is what you called friends. They will try their best to be by your side and give you support.. they will try their best to show some love to you whenever you need them.. diorang mungkin tak perlu tahu semua info tu dari mulut kita sendiri.. as what I always say, those information comes without you looking for it but it will just come by itself.. I guess all good friends are like that.. and I really hope this good friend of mine, will remain as my very best good buddy for the rest of my life..

Same goes as my kakak sayang, Syarifah Sharim.. she has been giving me supports tidak mengira waktu.. ;) hehehe.. she has been there with me through ups and downs.. she has been all around me when I'm in some bad situation and needed someone to talk to.. she has been there with me for the past one year and I thank God for giving me these TWO creatures to fill my life.. they made my life wonderful.. they made my life more entertaining... thank you sooooooo much... :) may we remain friends forever... :) saya sayang kamu semua... :D

XoXo... :-*

p/s: there's another creature in this world which I sayang jugak.. they understand me well.. life would be so much different without all these people...

confirm!!

AARRRGGHH.....!!!! it is confirm!!! that he has a girlfriend.... F*** mannnn...!!! I am so pissed off... okay.... I can... I can pretend like how I used to pretend towards someone last time... I'm goin to do this again but just a different person.... gosh!!!! why on earth do I have to do this...?? BUT.........

NO........!!!!!! can I? or can I not? oh God!!! why.......??? stop making yourself suffer.... just stop la woman.... but deep inside, I can't... argh...!!!! friends are so going to kill me if they hear or know about this... Kevel might just come to my house and slap me.... not just him I guess... one by one will come and do so... yes ppl..!! go on..!! slap me!! I need that.... I'm making myself stupid again but as I said, with different guy.... grrrr...... it has almost been a yr.. and you know what... I've added the wrong person somewhere.... which I think I shouldn't as that will stop me from uploading some chun-ted photos of my 'good friend' and I... argh...!!! nothing is goin my way... not a single thing... :(

I thought birthday this year goin to change everything as I celebrated it with happiness and not sadness like the previous years... but the happiness were just for a while... a very short while... really short... aiyh...!!

sy syg the necklace and the person who gave me that...

cry again...

why do i love to make myself suffer?? he's the one that made me smile and laugh but he is also the one that made me cry all day long.. I don't know how to move on.. He says the word love to many girls at one time.. he says the word miss to many girls at one time too... why is he such a 'lalang'..?? but the main question is, why do I become such a stupid person to actually stay and let him make a fool out of myself..?? why..?? why..?? why..??

I want to go on with life.. I can't be like this.. but I just can't do it at all... I lemah... I am not strong... there is nobody around me right now... if you are with her, just tell.. don't have to lie.. GOD!!! I want to get out.... I hate all this... I want to leave all this things behind... ARGH...!!!!!

Z S A

confused....

fiewh... im done with both of my supp papers.... =) hooray..!! hehehe... that is the reason why I have not been goin online and updating my blog... busy study kononnya... n besides that, I have been busy going to hospital to visit my grandfather. so, dah agak lama sebenarnye tak bukak laptop.. it has almost been a week...

what is the latest issue in my life... hmmm.. :-? rasanya mcm takde ape2.. kalau ade pun, I am not willing to share it yet.. hehe.. k.. all I know, I have another 2 papers next week... that is my mid term paper... alamak..!! penat la like dis... :( aiyh....

have you ever miss someone that you actually see and talk to almost everyday?? you just can't get enough of that person and somehow that feeling is killing me... everyone has been really nice to me.. they all want me to be happy without that person due to some reason.. but I will only be happy with that person for now.. no matter how many bad things that person has done, I am still waiting... but till when?? I can't just go on with life like this.. what had actually happen to me? I used to be someone who was really independant and could do everything in life without anyone by my side.. but I am not like that now.. what has actually got into my mind?? what has actually been controlling me for this time around?? I can't find the answer... I seriously can't.. or maybe I can but I'm just to busy or pretending to be busy to find the answer.. or maybe, I'm blind to see all that?? the more I think about it, more questions will be flying around my head... all I can say, I'm missin you now... a lot....

okay... the paragraph above was not suppose to be under this title... but I don't know why, all those words and questions came into my head and tadaaa...!! it's there... aiyh..!! life..life..life..

hahahaha... a bit confusing huh... at first I am okay and wrote all those things down happily but jump to the 'special' paragraph, mood changed dramatically... ahahhaha.. ;p and now.. back to my crazy mood... GOD!!! I seriously, badly, desperately need your help.... :(

Yesterday.. =(

I just can't believe you're gone
still waiting for morning to come
When I see the sun will rise
In the way that you're by my side

When we had so much ins store
tell me what is it I'm reaching for
when we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, my heart

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
they can take the music that we'll never play
all the broken dreams, take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

They can take the future that we'll never know
they can take the places that we said we will go
all the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
heaven know what the future holds
or least where the story goes
but i never believed until now

I know I'll see you again, I'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
one more night, one more day
one more smile on your face
but they can't take yesterday

I thought our days would last forever
but it wasn't our destiny
cause in my mind, we had so much time
but I was so wrong

No, I can, believe me
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

All the broken dreams take everything
They can never have yesterday.

YESTERDAY (LEONA LEWIS)
~missing you... ='(

errmm... =)

Hye.. =) supplementary exam is comin really soon n I have not start studying a single thing yet.. aiyh..!! biler nak berubah ni sofia... ishk3... ;p hehehe...

Well, nothing much happened lately besides some stuff yang I sendiri cari pasal.. serve u right sofia!! ergh!! I shall talk about that later or probably I shall just forget it. Kalau selalu ingat, I can't do anything else than.. I'll be thinking about it all the time and I'll start eating like a pig.. well.. that's what happened end of last year and I put on 7 kg... grrrr.... it is so easy to put on weight but to lose them, susah gilerr.... :S I shall change my minds off of those things...

Erm... other than that.. let me see... nothing much happen la... oooohhh..!! A friend called me up yesterday night.. That person is asking if I would want to join them performing this coming 27th... and according to that person, the sis of my friend saw me dance in the hall in our college once and she said I can dance.. wow!! ahahha... joke..!! I know I love dancing but tak sangka la the sister would say something like that... hahaha... heee..=D

and just now, college called... they want me to attend some leadership camp in Ayer Keroh, Melaka... It sounds interesting tapi thinking about it.. hello ppl in college... its the fasting month now and you all want me to attend that camp. grrrr.... I shall think about it la.. but what to think?? The lady in the office said, the thing is compulsory...!! no!!! and i just realize I ahve so manye events comin up this month... it is such a busy month mann.. hhahaha... it sounded like kononnya I am such a busy student la... hahaha.. langkah2 menuju kejayaan.. chewah..!! hhahaha.. no such thing... heheh =D

k la.. its about time to buka puasa... now is already 7PM.. I shall continue later... bubbye... =)

Jealous

Jealous.. kenapa tuhan wujudkan perasaan jealous atau cemburu?? im sure everyone has that feeling.. but I just don't know why, but my jealousy level is just tooooooooo high... I hate that!! i don't know how to cover with my friends whenever I got jealous.. I don't know how to put that feeling away from me..

Okay.. I used to be someone who were really good at pretending.. pretending in a good way obviously... not the bad ones.. pretending like I don't like that person.. pretending to not show how jealous I am with anyone.. pretending to be someone who doesn't care about anyone else but actually I do.. pretending that I am happy all the time.. pretending to be good.. just all the positive stuff.. will never show the other side of me to anyone... my ego was really high and that is the main reason why I don't show all those feelings to public last time.. but now... everything has change.. I'm not like how I used to be.. I show my hatred and jealousy to the things or the person that I don't like.. I show the ugly side of me which is merajuk, terasa hati and obviously cemburu atau JEALOUS and on and on.....

Why....?? why...?? why must I be like this now.. I wanna be just like how I used to be.. but I can't anymore.. I am so not myself now.. or is this the real me now..?? I'm confused.. God..!! which is the real me now??

My dear friend, I think some people may know who am I refering to.. I am really sorry for behaving that way.. I know I shouldn't.. but there is something making me behaving this way towards you.. I am so very trully sorry.. really sorry.. You may not know the real story now but one day you will know everything.. and I just hope by that time we will still be friends.. =) I know I am being stupid too but as I said, I can't help to get rid of all those feelings.
I think all this feelings wujud sebabkan satu lagi perasaan and that is ***E...!!
I apologize to everyone that somehow related to my story here.. If you think that person is YOU, then pls forgive me.. =(

p/s:to deqpah... thanx for the chain.. =D will wear it someday..